Wednesday, 16 September 2015

Trial and error

My whole life seems to be in constant change. In the garden it's trying new methods, repositioning where I grew last season's vegetable varieties; on the farm it's introducing new animals, new hatching/birthings; on the maintenance front it's trying new nesting boxes, changing which poultry live in the orchard, moving paddocks to suit the seasons...

It's all about watching what's working. At the moment, the geese have left the orchard and made nests all around the place.  I'm watching the grass grow longer and longer.  Our orchard fence has gaps where chooks can squeeze out so my latest plan is to do some fence repair and let my dorking chooks in there to keep some of the grass down. I don't want them to get out of the fence or they'll make their way to the veggie garden. Hopefully when the goslings hatch, the geese will return to the orchard because they do an amazing job of the grass! We haven't needed to cut it once since the geese came to live.
The paddocks need to be in the right place to suit the season. In late winter and spring I want the animals keeping down the bush on the west to reduce our fire hazard. Then in summer, when the vegetation stops growing, it's time to move them to the shade on the east side of the hill for their comfort.

I'm often reminded of the first principle of permaculture, observe and interact, as I think about what's happening and make changes accordingly. No area in our lives is exempt from this process. Not even my children's progress.

I've been loving my children being at home with me but have recently realised that I'm concerned that it's not working so well for Buddy. He learns differently to the girls and needs more guidance. I don't seem to find enough time to teach him well. As a result of that realisation, we are trialling our special school. I've always thought that, if he was educated conventionally, he would go to mainstream. However, with our lifestyle of the children being with me, they get plenty of 'real life' experience and special schools offer some advantages that mainstream can't. They have small class sizes which benefit the children, therapy and flexibility. 
We are going to trial Buddy attending two days a week and spending the rest of the time here with me. He spent the day at the school yesterday and loved it! I felt a tad guilty too when I discovered how much I enjoyed the time without him. It was quiet and peaceful. While he's generally so good and helpful, I wasn't aware that I live in a constant state of low lying stress because I'm always on guard 'in case'. You mothers of toddlers would identify with this feeling. You always need to be alert.

So for now we watch, assess and decide later if we've made the right decision. And try to stay calm and contented as we live our lives in a constant state of flux.

Monday, 14 September 2015

Sunny Sunday

Yesterday was the first day in ages that I have been home and able to get out in the garden on a sunny day. Doesn't the sun inspire you! Everything in the garden is moving; I have spinach, lettuce, leeks, rhubarb, silver beet and asparagus ready for the eating.
The muscles in my arms and chest are reminding me of the work we did. I can't believe how much we managed. I shovelled six barrows of manure to the potato patch. I'm a bit later than I'd like with the potatoes this year. Late August is a good time to get them in if I watch out for frost and cover them on the bad nights.

I manured two other veggie beds, fixed a hole in our little pond, clipped the wings of our young layers and put them back in the paddock, gave the pigs some wallowing water and belatedly mulched the asparagus. I've sown seeds for parsnips but I'm not holding out much hope. I don't seem to be home enough to constantly keep soil wet for veggies like asparagus and carrots.
Belle set up the monitor in the goat shed so we'll know if Argoo goes into labour during the night. We're both quite nervous about the event as it draws closer. She's such a sweet little goat and her tummy is huge!

I attended my first Landcare working bee yesterday but felt a smoodge guilty that I only stayed an hour due to my work screaming at me from home. I found out that the working bees are only every three months though, so next time I'll try to free the time. It's quite lovely hanging out in the bush pulling out weeds.

I hope to get back out in the garden today. Isn't it funny how achieving work in the garden always makes you see more, not less, jobs!

We have baby goats, geese and ducklings due in the next few weeks so there's no missing that Spring has sprung.
We think our first nest of goslings will hatch in the next week. It's made me realise we've come so far in our food journey with the children. Pumpkin was chattering to me as I worked and she commented that the goslings might be old enough to eat for Christmas lunch. "Oh, and we might have goat! Then we could kill a rooster too and it would be a real feast!"

I like how normal this lifestyle appears to my kids. There's such satisfaction in providing food that wasn't manufactured, bought from a multinational company, feed or sprayed with chemicals, transported for miles or packaged in wasteful packaging. Little bit by little bit we are becoming less dependent.
Pumpkin has been asking for days if we can make some pasta now that we have plenty of eggs again. I think I might do that with her today and enjoy pasta with asparagus for dinner. In fact, talking about asparagus has me craving some. I think I'll go and munch on a fresh spear for brekky!

Happy gardening and eating!

Tuesday, 1 September 2015

A slow living link-up apology

My computer's playing up this morning so I jumped on the iPad to post.  It was an interesting exercise.  Over a year ago my twelve year old daughter, Belle, began a blog.  She posted once and then never again.  I nagged encouraged her to write again but she never did.  Or so I thought!!!

This morning I completed my post and started to publish when I realised with a shock that I was using Belle's account!  I found she had written several posts but never published them.  I've talked her into letting me publish her posts (even though she never got around to putting photos to them) because I thought they were lovely!  Pop over to have a look and also to find my post for today that was posted on Growing Up Green in error.

Sunday, 2 August 2015

Monthly nine - July 2015

..........and it's August!!  How time is flying this year!

Please join with me as I record the happenings of the last month.  This link-up is made up of a group of warm and friendly bloggers with many ideas to share.  We each cover nine categories for the month which you can read about here.  This group was created by Christine at Slow Living Essentials and continues on with many regulars joining in.  Please join us by linking your post below.

There's no mistaking it's winter as I walk out the door in the mornings.  We've had many frosts this July and my fingers are usually stinging with the cold as I tend to the animals in the morning.  It's wonderful to step back into the house and go about my day with the fire warming us all and keeping us cosy.  So what did I get up to in July?


We've enjoyed eating more meat than usual lately.  It's been a confronting time for all of us as we've become more serious about eating in a way that is more sustainable and kinder to animals.  I've posted many times about my struggle to enjoy eating roosters that we have butchered ourselves.  I've just pushed on though and finally I'm becoming used to it.  I'm able to enjoy the meals for the first time since we started this process.  Hubby and I dispatched two roosters and faced the really confronting task of having our young goat dealt with.

It's hard when you're on a small farm like ours because you get to know your animals so intimately.  We had planned to deal with the goat ourselves but when the time came, we just couldn't do it!  So we had a butcher do it for us and it was the right decision.
The two younger children were totally at ease with eating the meals but poor Belle, at the age of twelve (and the carer of the goats), really struggled.  She understands our reasoning though and was very mature about it.  She even tasted a little bit of the goat.

We've discovered two important facts about eating your own poultry.  Age matters.  It really makes a difference.  As does resting the meat.  We dispatched a young Australorp and used it as a roast, followed by a chicken pie made from the leftovers.  The other rooster was a bit older so it will be used in a slow cooked casserole.

The goat provided us with twelve kilos of meat.  We've enjoyed a casserole cooked with tomatoes and balsamic vinegar and a curry so far.  The rest of the meat is in the freezer.


We made some lemon cordial and I even water bathed it this time so that we can keep it for later in the year.  I haven't made as much as I would like though so I must prepare a couple more batches soon.  It would be lovely to have some ready to drink in summer.

We've been making shelters for the animals in different paddocks on the property.  We've started a rotational system where we move the animals into a new paddock every week or two.  I love the idea of moveable pens but, given that we're on a rough hill, I haven't come up with a useable system.  So we'll just keep building the new pens as we go.  This hard work will pay off in the long run.  Next year the shelters will be sitting waiting for us.

We haven't purchased any materials except for the screws so far.  I've been taking the trailer to town and scrounging pallets.  The tin is just old stuff we've had lying around but we've nearly used it all up now.  I'll need to find out where I can access junk tin soon.


I've done nothing new here.  We still make our own washing powder and bathroom soap.  We use soap to wash our hair.  We've gone backwards in some respects because we now use a purchased dishwasher powder.  The dishwasher kept getting blocked up and smelly with the homemade stuff and I just haven't got time to worry about dishes right now.  This is the only chemical product we are using at the moment and I put in half the recommended amount.  It works effectively.


I've been quite halfhearted in the garden.  I've put in some seedlings from a friend and some from Mum but I'm certainly not looking after them well.  I think I've only fertilised once this month!  Hopefully the soil can create some magic and grow veggies without my help.

I did, however, spend some time making net covers for the garden when I realised that every seedling I planted was disappearing.  I'm not sure who/what the culprit was, but the nets have fixed the problem.  I now have spinach and the leeks are nearing maturity.  Broad beans are poking through the soil and lettuces have self seeded.
I'm still working on my little neck shawl.  Nearly there now!  I haven't had time to sit and knit so it's a project I only work on if we're travelling as a family when Hubby drives.


I completed a MOOC (Massive Open Online Learning) run through RMIT.  It was a photography course.  You won't see much improvement by way of photographic embellishment of this blog yet though.  I'm way at the beginner level.and I'm happy just to understand a little more about aperture, focal length etc.  My dream is to own a digital SLR one day....

I've also been learning about pigs with the introduction to our farm of a boar and sow.  Meet Peggy.  Isn't she lovely!

Well I must have been keeping to myself on these chilly winter days!  I can't think of a single thing to report here.

I loved implementing our rotating paddocks in July.  There were many mistakes and mishaps but I can already see that over time this system will flow.  The arrival of the pigs has changed the pace of farm life along with our young chickens who will become layers in spring.

We also managed to squeeze in some fun family outings.  The kids and I loved Inside Out and we enjoyed visiting a park in Bendigo.  The children are fascinated by the bats.
But most of all we enjoyed adopting our new maremma, Gypsy!
Please join in with us and share a post about your month!

Sunday, 19 July 2015

Cooking with stinging nettles

Since I began cooking with stinging nettles, I look forward to them popping up.  If you haven't eaten them yet, I strongly encourage you to give them a try.
They taste a bit like spinach.  They are beautifully soft when cooked, are good for you, are versatile and best of all, they are free!

I used to go outside, don a pair of gardening gloves and pick them leaf by leaf.  I actually really enjoy the process.  It's a gentle and meditative process.

Lately though, I've been feeling time poor so I've become a bit more savvy.  It's much quicker to just break the stalk near the ground and pop it in the basket complete with all the leaves attached.  I give them a rinse in a colander and put them all in a large pot with the tiniest amount of water.  After a couple of minutes over heat, they wilt right down and lose their sting.  Then you can pull off the individual leaves and use them in the dish of your choosing.
You should cook with them before they flower.  After flowering they can apparently irritate the urinary tract. 

I tend to use them with other veggies.  For example, when serving a casserole I might layer some mashed potato topped with nettles and then serve the casserole directly on the top.

I also like to add them to tomato based pasta sauces or make a pasta sauce just using the nettles, onions, garlic, some stock and a little cream.

I make them one of the main ingredients in a soup with parsnips.  Delicious!  The resulting soup is the most beautiful colour of green.

I have used them to steam in a parcel with fish before too and it was one of the nicest meals I've eaten.
If you haven't cooked with them before, you're in for a treat.  Please pop back and let me know what you thought and how you cooked them.  I would love to try out any new recipe ideas!

Friday, 3 July 2015

A balancing act

Today I wanted to write about beginning to regain some time for myself in the process of raising children.  Child raising melded with slow living and all that it involves.  You see lately I've been finding snatches of time to pursue my interests. Things beyond simple living. Things that are not about responsibility but about me!   Something I couldn't even imagine a short time back.
However, whilst planning my words in my head, I realised that I can't simply write about the process, without making this a post about disability.  That is due to the intensity of the recent years behind us.

Many families which include children with Down syndrome make the decision to treat their family primarily as a family first and foremost.  There is so much merit in this and we tried very hard to just be us and enjoy growing with our children.  After all, kids with Down syndrome are just like other family members in their contributions and relationships.

Buddy played with his sisters, annoyed them deliberately just like any other brother, developed skills in a similar order (albeit somewhat slower in many areas), and brought the same feelings of pride and joy as he learned to walk, speak, tidy his toys etc.
However, unlike some of the families I have known who are also travelling our path, we have been HUGELY concerned with getting enough therapy for our son.  I would have liked therapy most days if I had been able to access it.

This placed a lot of pressure on our family.  Locally, therapy in the form of speech pathology, occupational therapy or physiotherapy was only available once a month.  I didn't feel that amount of intervention was going to help my son so we made the decision to travel to access twice weekly therapy.  It placed a huge burden on our family and changed all the children's formative years.
I can't begin to tell you the effect this battle had on me.  I didn't cope well with accepting that I wasn't able to access help locally.  I felt no one cared.  I felt alone and disillusioned with our society to know that a parent wanting to use formal therapy was unable to get help.  I felt let down and very bitter that I had to fight so hard to find the right teaching methods for my son.  I was incredibly forceful in demanding the help I wanted.  It went against the grain to be so persistent and I was left feeling that the service providers must think I was a horrible person.  Still, I had no experience with disability and wanted to benefit from all the experience and effective strategies that had come before us.  I didn't want to reinvent the wheel.

I think I aged overnight and my personality changed.  I wasn't carefree anymore, didn't laugh often or easily, and was burnt out.  But it was NEVER Buddy's syndrome that brought me undone.  It was the lack of support.
No wonder families decide therapy is not the be all and end all!  Others were happily living their lives with their gorgeous children while I was stressed and banging my head very hard against a brick wall.  I made phone calls, wrote letters to politicians, constantly tried to change a system that I saw as blatantly wrong!  It takes a lot of emotional energy to fight.  I also understand that many families believe their children will benefit as much from a fulfilling home life as from intensive therapy and they may well be right.

So why did I do this to myself and my family?  Well because I know for a fact that people with Down syndrome can lead very capable and fulfilling lives.  I've met adults that have given me so much hope that my boy will be an independent adult.  Like all parents, my hopes and dreams are that my boy will  be a good man, capable and happy.

I'm not able to measure how much therapy affects outcome, how much is learnt from life, or how much is just genetics but I'm not prepared to take chances.  I will do everything I can to extend Buddy in any way I can.
I recall a day when Buddy was about two.  I was at our local gym and the kids were in childcare.  I saw a group of adults with disabilities and stood enjoying watching them.  Since our introduction to the exclusive world of disability, my heart is warmed by watching happy adults.  So I was standing there with a silly smile on my face when one young man with Down syndrome ordered food from the canteen with help from a carer.

He approached the counter, blowing raspberries and pointing at the item he wanted.  Well.. in a rush of emotions, I collapsed.  I was shocked that this man wasn't capable of speech.  I burst into tears and raced to the toilets.  I threw myself into a cubicle and slid down the wall onto the floor, sobbing.  Loudly!  I couldn't control my tears and was ashamed to find myself crying in such an obvious display of heart wrenching grief.

I think my emotions were compounded by the unexpectedness.  I was loving watching those people.  Little did I dream that I was going to be confronted by the possibility that my child might never be able to look after himself!  It hurt me beyond belief.

I felt guilt too, for my reaction.  I strongly believe that each person has worth and contributes to the community.  I don't want to live in an artificial world where we only have capable, able bodied people.  I would love Buddy just the same if he wasn't able to speak but it's not the outcome I would choose.  While his worth as a person would be no less in my eyes, he would face many more challenges through life.

I will never know if Buddy is the capable boy he is, because of my efforts or if he would have achieved the same outcome without my help.  Possibly we could have just stayed home and played more, visited friends and family more.

Luckily, the Australian system is undergoing a huge overhaul.  When the National Disability Insurance Scheme is fully implemented, families will be able to access as much therapy as they see fit without the exhausting battle behind the scenes.

Finally Australia is moving forward but I will always wonder if I chose the right path.  On a personal level, we have reached a stage that I am able to relax.  Buddy is a capable and thoughtful young boy.  He makes me proud every day in some way or another.  I'm even proud of his misbehavior if it's developmentally appropriate!
So thankfully we put the experience of early intervention behind us and continue with our private therapy (expensive but worth it) and wait for the introduction of the NDIS in our area.  I am starting to leave the younger children with their father more and do things just for ME!  I can spend more time thinking about my adult children whom I have neglected throughout these years.  Finally I am able to give them the attention they deserve and rekindle the relationships that I so enjoy!
Yep, the eldest is definitely shorter!
I hope as the years go by, families are able to enjoy both sides of disability.  Raising a child while feeling supported and, at the same time, being able to feel like a happy, well functioning family.

Wednesday, 1 July 2015

Monthly Nine June 2015

Welcome back!  The first month of winter has passed and we march headlong into July.  It happened in the blink of an eye!  I'm sorry to see June go.  It was a cosy month of fires, knitting and rugging up to go and work outside.

Tell us about your June.  What did you get up to?  Please join in with our friendly bunch of bloggers for our monthly linkup.  All you need to do is post regarding each of the nine categories created by Christine from Slow Living Essentials.  Christine's not posting as often these days but her blog is full of ideas and beauty!

You can post at any time during the month as evidenced by Evi's welcome but very recent post for May.  (I'm looking forward to finding time to read it Evi.)  Once you've published, just link below.  Don't forget to visit the other blogs to enjoy the tales and gain inspiration.

June 2015

Soup!  Soup has featured time and time again.  Warming us up on the inside on those chilly winter days.  Pumpkin soup and Italian meat and veg soup were the favourites.  I varied the meat and veg soup depending on which green veggies I happened to have in the fridge or garden.  Sometimes I added broccoli, other times silver beet.  We also dispatched a couple of roosters for meals.  We cooked them up on the same day.  I now know for a fact that they need to rest for a couple of days.   I've never eaten chewier or stringier meat!

I used Rhonda's easy orange cake recipe a couple of times in June.  I substituted half a cup of the flour with polenta which gave it a different, but nice, texture.  I've been busy with teaching the children and working on the farm so quick food like the cakes and soups were very handy.  A double batch at a time gave me even more space to get other jobs done.  We have, however, been taking our time at breakfast.
I also made up a naughty batch of fudge.  It's been years since I made fudge.  I used to fancy myself an expert.  It's all about the temperature you boil it at.  Hot enough to set it but not so hot that you burn it or make it grainy.  Obviously I've lost the knack because it didn't set well but boy, was it still yummy!!
I exchanged some honey for a bag of limes recently.  We made lime slice, lime cake and preserved some limes in the Middle Eastern style of salting and adding juice and herbs.  I'm looking forward to trying them in about a month.

Old saucepans without handles are being used for chook's water.  They have a good base that the chooks don't tip over.

We've tripped down to Savers (thrift shop) a couple of times in the last month in search of presents and also some clothing and shoes.  We were all starting to look a bit scruffy with holes in the knees of our well worn pants!  I even found time to darn a pair of socks in June.
I've started using the batch of soap that I told you about last month.  I put it into moulds just a tad too early.  The mix had not quite reached trace.  It doesn't lather up as well and it's very brittle and breaks easily.

Hmmm!  Yes, well...  I'm not sure who's been eating from the garden but it wasn't us.  Mum gave me some lettuce and silver beet seedlings which are GONE!  Birds, ducks, chooks, snails??  I don't really know but I've since netted the bed.
We have had silver beet to enjoy from another untouched bed, a little rhubarb and, of course, herbs.  There's not much else ready for eating right now.

Knitting has been the order of the month for both Belle and me.  Belle and I both made fingerless mittens in desperation once our hands began stinging from the cold. I made a pair for myself and a pair for Buddy (which he's already lost) and Belle worked on knitting for Pumpkin and herself.

I'm in the process of knitting a small scarf now.
I've bought two books on pigs by Lee McCosker which I'm devouring at the moment.  Well my version of devouring anyway which is really a matter of picking them up when I have a spare moment and reading a little more.  The pigs are overdue to arrive but I'm nervous so don't want to have them here until I think we are ready.  Sorry Jenna!  Soon, I promise.  Lucky my friends are so patient and understanding!
Cheap hot chocolate thanks to Chris at Gully Grove!
I've also started a MOOC on photography.  I was childishly delighted this morning when taking the above photo of my knitting!  Instead of moving my knitting from the dark spot it was sitting, I was able to let extra light in to get the shot!!  It may not sound much but it was the very first step I've ever taken in having control over what my camera can do.  While not perfect, I influenced the outcome so I feel very photographer-y!  I now have hope I can one day understand how the aperture and shutter speed affect a shot.

A lovely thing happened to me at the library a couple of weeks ago.  We are regular library goers and, on this particular day, I was greeted with a book which was right up my alley!  The staff had done a recent cull of books which they place on a sale table.  They kept a book aside for me because they knew I would love it.  It's so nice to know people are thinking of you!
I loved taking part in our local under ten's football.  It's the first time I've been involved with a football club.  My kids made me proud as I shivered and froze on the sidelines.
Yes, you're seeing it right.  Emus on the footy ground!!

Belle and I also enjoyed a catch up at the movies with my older girls, who I don't see nearly enough for my liking.

Nothing like some selfie silliness to bring on an attack of the giggles!
So that was June in a nutshell.  What did you get up to?  Please link with us below.